ill (f)usion

i cry on skin
i never touched
i fall for words
i never heard
i cherish a candle
that never burned

i can´t hope forever
but i can´t face a "never"

so i hurt but i smile
and hold on for a while
to the illusion of
the fusion
between our hearts

-i know it is scattered and marred

it always was, we never were
a we

skin, words, candle -
you
in dreams with me
vibrant, poetic and burning