rotation

in the dark hours
we walk and stalk
the spirals in our head

downward in a blaze
of regret and hate
doors get slammed
into our face

rollercoaster-sickening life
among mice
in the underworld
of waste and rage

we are squeaking and sneaking
below and above
an army of love
unspoken

lost in ignorance, fear, despair
dying in motion
crashed by rotation

borderline friend

the fish can´t live with the bird
the fish can´t cry when it hurts
no one will be
with the cold shaking me
drowned in invisible tears
in an ocean of need
am i your friend, indeed?

i can´t expect you to hold my hand
when all you`ll see is how i end
in tearing and swearing my life to pieces

i can´t expect you to give me your light
when i blow you away and defend the dark side

i can´t be with you
i know i will miss you
and i hurt myself to hurt you
and i burn myself to alert you
just to deny the fate of a fatal state
and smoothe you for the peace of night

i know it´s wrong
you are so sane and on your flight
i can´t disturb a life that is life
i can´t ask you to endure the pain
i cause without reason and right

i´ll perish, i´ll perish
please be free!

and leave the greedy queen that´s me
i need you to go
cause i need you so
and with your heart
you fight the hate
-the hate that makes me know it´s too late

it always was
a fish in a glass
shattering the walls
and cutting herself up

flee and BE
in life, in heaven without me!

share moments with those who can love
and wave farewell to the queen of spades
piercing her mind and draining your stars
to go up in blood and flame
with no-one but herself to blame

there is so much hate
there is so much rage

run, run, from my cage of devastation!

and be on your way to find friends
at another station
bound for jumping a train of love
without question
without farce
friends to the end
i can´t even carry you round the bend
without crashing and smashing us into a hole
and begging you to to feed me the flesh of your soul
i´m feeble
i´m empty
i lie
go, go, don´t even say goodbye!

birth of worth

there´s no freedom in escape
there´s no love in death-bound caves
there´s no peace in watching bleed
the fearstruck girl that cuts
what she may breed

once she fell into a well
and ever since
awaits her fate
of hitting ground
of getting drowned
at the lowest end
of her free-falling self

in a tunnel that bites
the light from her eyes
and shatters the hopes she never had-

to take a needy child to bed
to save her wings from slaughter
in an embrace
that no-body could have brought her

an embrace of love
for the beauty she tossed
down the suicide path
in a well of abortion-

The hell, girl, you know
this birth will be none of distortion!

Stop raping the child
and life will be in your might

There´s freedom in loving embrace