The moment, alone, and all shines bright
a handful, or hundreds of people
just me, I am here, the only disciple
and I breathe and the lights break down inside
before I get ready… before I am able…
to say…, to stay, and stand by your side
this is and was over too soon
and all in a heartbeat, a voice, and a song
And life is this lily
this falling and flying array
of petals that blink, bloom, and fade away
and there I was and it all just collapsed
my silence was stilled
the empty hole, desire, and will
just a smile, just a voice
strings, drums, and resonance
and a heart to crack up on
this feathery evidence
just a second of floating, dangling, and dancing
on the brink of time, the abyss of the divine
and I cut it out with a finger tip
throw it back to you - make it flip, make it kick
for one last time
And I would marry my life, just for this song
don´t play tricks, don´t leave me alone
I need this to be real, to be mine
give me some time, be my groom, let me shine
my petals are dead but just let me know
that all of the tears that I shed
all my grief and regret
in a grave counting stones
and feeling alone
were not in vain
and that just for once I got no one to blame
May the ghosts fade
and take me away
and give me all the right reasons
to be here and feel vibrant and strong
and smile so you´ll let me in and belong
collect me, just have me, and slice me to pieces
make them look like stars,
erase me from this species
I am someone who cannot be
give me a reason to leave
and never to see
when the rain hits the gutter
and illusions drip from my eyes
and romance was never a matter
Say it´s alright,
the way I lived my life after all
and that my fingers were not just too small
to reach out and touch all this light
to say hello and please come by
I´ll bake a cake and let you rest on my knee
and oh my eyes have four different colours
and how far we would travel in these blissful hours
let me show you something, share my cup
let me show you, I don´t make this up
I live on nothing and all that you give
I want to retrieve all the magic, and beauty, and tragedy
that life sometimes is
The record plays on
and in a moment I´ll drown
in a wine glass, a glance
and wished I had it in me
to make this my last dance
to crash on the shore of the infinite
I know, I know I have to let go, you´re no longer in it
give me a reason, don´t leave, flee with me
this is the closest to life I could ever be
And days have passed
and here I am, with your record, and wine
and an empty old heart
the final song, and my wine all gone
give me a reason
save my wings
breathe out and make real
all this beauty that stings
and maybe just dam say you know how I feel
for my best fiend
