painfully alive

farewell wishes
unspoken
sadness
beauty
overwhelment by the whole big concept
of what life is all about
moments
touches
stroking cheeks, hair, necks
words resonating in hearts forever
kisses
laughter
rooms, smells,
coffee
and postcards
tears
falling asleep skin on skin
staring at a ceiling
wishing wearily, desperately
half-smiling
half-crying
so lost
so lonely
that life would end
right there, right then
in a strange room
filled with warmth, breath, dreams
of a stranger
and the thoughts
swallowed tears
and voiceless, begging words
of a girl
lying wide awake
scared
and painfully alive