borderline friend

the fish can´t live with the bird
the fish can´t cry when it hurts
no one will be
with the cold shaking me
drowned in invisible tears
in an ocean of need
am i your friend, indeed?

i can´t expect you to hold my hand
when all you`ll see is how i end
in tearing and swearing my life to pieces

i can´t expect you to give me your light
when i blow you away and defend the dark side

i can´t be with you
i know i will miss you
and i hurt myself to hurt you
and i burn myself to alert you
just to deny the fate of a fatal state
and smoothe you for the peace of night

i know it´s wrong
you are so sane and on your flight
i can´t disturb a life that is life
i can´t ask you to endure the pain
i cause without reason and right

i´ll perish, i´ll perish
please be free!

and leave the greedy queen that´s me
i need you to go
cause i need you so
and with your heart
you fight the hate
-the hate that makes me know it´s too late

it always was
a fish in a glass
shattering the walls
and cutting herself up

flee and BE
in life, in heaven without me!

share moments with those who can love
and wave farewell to the queen of spades
piercing her mind and draining your stars
to go up in blood and flame
with no-one but herself to blame

there is so much hate
there is so much rage

run, run, from my cage of devastation!

and be on your way to find friends
at another station
bound for jumping a train of love
without question
without farce
friends to the end
i can´t even carry you round the bend
without crashing and smashing us into a hole
and begging you to to feed me the flesh of your soul
i´m feeble
i´m empty
i lie
go, go, don´t even say goodbye!